Depression puts you a such low position sleep pattern changes lost of appetite the low mood and the lack of motivation leaves you feeling heavy and empty. Not wanting to meet up with friend or even talk to them. All of this overwhelming emotions are at no fault of your own making so try be kind to yourself; the guilt along with deep sadness it the cheery on top of everything else. Heavy body, foggy head all fragmented yet too much.
Self-care is difficult to contemplate right now, it will take enough and support and that is okay too. Okay to ask for therapy to share to talk to sit with another who would not judge you at Talking Counselling.